Monday, December 26, 2005

My Lonely Christmas...

A Christmas that is never meant to be... My life changes after my breakup!!! There goes the same for my Christmas... Its a boring day as i spent my Christmas at home... Got no mood to stay out for the count down and i really think of my Ex... This is the first time ever that i spent my Christmas day so lonely and so sad... I believed that for the rest of the Seasons, i will be lonely forever... Haiz, time really flies... Dear, I know u are there Celebrating your Christmas with your Boyfriend... You should! I'm wordless now.... Just gonna tell u i missed u like crazy!!!! I'm thinking of u my Dear!!!.... I Love u...

Thursday, December 22, 2005

An unexpected meetup...


The Christmas present that i have prepared for my Dear was meant to be passed to her through a friend of mine named Pearline... She was my Dear's sec schmates... I know that no matter how or what, My Dear will never ever meet up with me... All i can only do is to get the present pass to her through our friends... On the 21st of Dec, I got to rush down to Causeway Point after work to pass the present to Pearline so that she could give it to My Dear as they will be meeting over at Causeway Point... I know that Hai Lee will not see me and i really don't wish her to know that i have prepare her a present...When i called Pearline to meet up, she was already with My Dear... Pearline told me that Hai Lee will not see me but will receive the present that i give to her... So all i know is that i will not be able to see My Dear as she will be at the restroom waiting for Pearline to get the present from me...

After passing the present to Pearline, all i wished is that i could really see my Dear... But i really can't get to see her as Pearline told me that Hai Lee is at the restroom... My tears almost dropped off from my eyes but i managed to control it...

Later when i called Pearline up to find out whether did My Dear likes the present, she told me that Hai Lee is leaving soon cos she got to meet her friends... After that, Pearline met up with me... I told Pearline that i really missed My Dear and i really wanna see her... So she tried calling Hai Lee and managed to get her to meet me... I'M SO HAPPY!!!!

When she meets me, She cried!!! Her tears dropped immediately and i also can't bear to see her crying... My tears dropped naturally... After she is more stable with her emotions, she begins to talk to me... I wanted to wipe her tear away for her but she rejected me... We had a long talk after that and i asked her that does she like the present i have prepared...Although she did not reply me but i know deep inside my heart that she loves it a lot...


Dear, Still remember the tissue u have give me to wipe my tears when we were at the Bus Interchange? When u are waiting for bus? When the moment i begin to drop my tears in front of u..../? Dear, I really love u that i could do anything for u... To sacrifice for u...No matter how...To Die for u...No matter what... I know that u have been together with Kenny for 2 months soon... But all i gonna tell u is that i will be right here waiting for your returning Dear.... I'm wordless now... I really hope that there could be miricle.... I LOVE YOU, DEAR...

Wednesday, December 21, 2005

My Christmas Present for My Dear.... Its all my Hard Work!!!





Monday, December 19, 2005

19th Dec 05... 5 months le... Arghhh!!!!!!!!!


Life is meaningless... Haiz... 5 months of unbearable life for me is like hell... I don't know why, i don't know why i have began to hate girls!!!! I find that girls are frightening creatures on earth... I'm afraid!!! Real afraid... After our breakup, all the girls that comes by seems nothing to me... They seems to be just normal friends to me... I have been trying very hard to move on, but i seems to be like i'm running on the same spot... On and On and On..... I'm Sick!!!! Really!!! Love Sick that i would say.... All the girls that i have know since our breakup are just girls that i would treasure them as friends... Perhaps i'm a guy who treasure things that is related to me... And perhaps i'm a guy who is only passionate to things that i loved... Dear, i will be passionate to u... the only one.... i'm waiting for you to come home...dear... I'm waiting for you here...

Thursday, December 01, 2005

7.38 PM 21 sec !!!!!! I Know....



After all this months, i know that my dear is trying to avoid me... She won't even picked up my call and sometimes when she heard my voice, she would just hang up the phone... I know that i'm sad, I know that i'm Immobilised, I know that i'm lost..... And i know that i can't do anything... Today, i received a car insurance company letter who wanted to make a claim against me as i had an accident not long after our breakup. I know that my dear is not to be blamed and i know that i'm the one who make mistakes when i'm driving. The other party wanted to make a claim of $3460.20 against me. I was so sad... The first person i came in my mind is my dear. How i wished to tell her about me now. I know that she would never be back with me anymore, i know that she will not pick up my call anymore. I just know that what she want is to delete away me from her... But i decided to msg her at least to tell her how my feelings now. Not did i expect, she return my msg!!!! I'm shocked, i really don't know what to do next... She msg me at 7.38 and 21 sec at night... I'm really happy!!! I'm really really excited!!! But i know that she would never want to come back to me... I know that she don't loves me anymore... I know that she love that loser who stepped in... I know that....