Hai Lee Forever!!!!...

That's my Dear's name on my body! I know that she once said that she was so afraid of me after I have put her name on me... I'm so upset that she have turn out to be afraid of me. WHY?? I felt the pain in my body when the tatoo machine's needle pieced through my skin. My tears almost dropped as i think of her when it is being pieced... I know that although i have tatoo her name on my body will not bring her back, but i just wanted to remember her for the rest of my life... The girl i cherish the most, the girl i truelly loved the most, the girl that i wanted to marry the most, the girl that i have kept my promised till now n forever....

I Missed You Like Crazy !!!...

EveryThing I Do, I Do It For You....

What have i not done? After our breakup? ~ ~Done a picture puzzle for her ~Done a picture pillow for her ~Created a video for her ( the video can be downloaded on my Links) ~Created this blog and a hello kitty blog for her ~Waited for her at her place for days ~Try my best to get her time table for her sch ~Send her Money every month even after our breakup as i have promised her ~Promised to change for her ~Save up money for her ~Done a mini album for all my letters wrote to her throughout this six years ....

My First Love...My Last Love...

Can you remember the first time we met?
Can you remember how your heart started pounding on your chest?
Can you remember the first love-letter I wrote?
Can you remember our very first kiss?
Can you remember the day that you left me?
Can you still feel your heart bleeding?
Can you remember all the laughs that we had?
Can you remember our secret dates...our secret meeting place? Can you remember seeing me again after such a long time?
Can you remember losing me again?
Can you remember the night I got on that plane and flew out of your life forever?
Can you remember your first long-distance phone-bill?
Can you remember the feeling of your hands trembling every time you opened your Post box?
Baby, I remember every second...every tear, every smile of you back then as a 15 year old girl.. I remember your cheeky grins. Your laugh is the last thing I hear at night before I fall asleep...and your face is the first thing I think of in the morning. We have been apart too long that u won't ever be together again...because our love is too powerful, too intensive..too dangerous! The mere thought of seeing you, alone from the distance, sends shivers down my spine and turns my head spinning... You were always there for me, and you were my best girlfriend that i had...you were my life.. I swore to you that I would never ever love anyone again as much as I loved you, the pain would be unbearable, the fear would tear me apart, the fear of losing again... I will always love you, too much.. I will always remember the words you had told me, I will always think of you in every moment I live, I will always remember you for the good, & pray that God will forgive the bad, What you don't understand? 6 Years of my life was dedicated to loving you...to living you... You were the scent in my clothing, the smile on my lips,the daydream in my head during class, the sparkle in my eyes... But you were also the Sword that ripped my heart into pieces, the thunder clouds covering my sun, the pain pressuring against my chest - taking away my breath.. You were my first love and you will be my last love,and that's why I have to let go...before you break a heart that took too long to mend. Just love me...love that 17 years old boy that u used to love, but promise you'll forget me...forget the guy that I am today Yours in this life,& the life hereafter..

What can i say, What can i do...

These are the words for u dear...


WHAT CAN I DO, WHAT CAN I SAY,
FOR US TO GET BACK IN THAT LITTLE SPECIAL WAY?
I LOVED YOU FROM THE START, BUT I SCREWED UP BIG...
AND NOW I BROKE YOUR HEART...

WHEN I SAW YOU NOW,
WITH THAT NEW DIFFERENT GUY
IT HURTS ME SO BAD, THAT I DID CRY
ALL I WANT IS FOR YOU AND ME TO WORK IT OUT
I KNOW IT MAY NOT HAPPEN BECAUSE I WAS A JERK...

WHEN I FIRST MET YOU, I KNEW IT WAS TRUE
IT WAS LIKE MY LIFE HAD JUST STARTED, SPECIALLY ON YOU...

I MADE A HUGE MISTAKE,
THAT I WILL HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY WHOLE LIFE

BUT I REALLY HOPE IT WONT AFFECT US,
I HOPE YOU CAN STILL BE MY GIRLFRIEND/WIFE...

MY WORDS ARE COMING TO AN END,
I HOPE YOU BELIEVE ME
AS I NEED YOU MORE THEN A FRIEND
I LOVE YOU, DEAR...!!!!

The Guy that came into our life...

A guy who stepped into our relationship... Now my dear who left me for a guy which is her classmate that have just known for a few months... It was so heartbroken for me to realise that since my dear went into the U, they have been very closed to each other although i was not there. All along the guy have been always with my dear even my dear met my godsister in her sch. He has always been there with her that i didn't even know... How i wished to have killed myself!

Although it was all my wrongs in this relationship which my dear claimed to be, but through out this miserable periods that i'm going through now i have been thinking a lot... How could 1 relationship that only a person that make mistakes? Perhaps i not suitable for a relationship if everyone thinks that i'm all in the wrong... Love really suck's...

They have been together since 23rd oct which is about 3 months after we broke up. How could a girl fall in love with a guy for so fast especially we have been together for 6years 1 month... Perhaps the girl have no feeling for me for very long le.. it's just for the seek of going on... Perhaps i'm too naive that actually i planned to get engaged by next year and marry my dear after her studies... All this is just a dream of mine which i myself have been thinking only... How naive am i!!!!!! SUCKS....

I will always remember the guy who stepped into our love...