A Different Reunion Dinner....

Without her by my side really feels weird and different... Every Eve's of Chinese New Year, my Dear and me used to wash car together. But this year, everything seems to be different... Didn't even bother to have my car washed... Normally after reunion dinner, we would meet up... Be it going to "River Hong Bao", going to temple, going to Chinatown, stays at my house, or even meetup with our friends... But now? Got to live without her... WHY? Really feels lonely without her presence.... Really!! Everything really chances so much... So much that i can't believe myself... Sometimes i even thought that i'm dreaming!!! My mood today was really really Suck's... I'm tired....

Perhaps i should not be in this world...

Every living thing in this world is cruel!!! Life is meaningless.... Suck's that i would say... People in this world are practical, cheap, bastard, slut, afraid of death, cruel, lazy, evil, sickening, horny, loser, ugly, beast, bitch, stupid, idiot..... I can't live on.... After 6 months of suffering... I'm tired!!! I'm miserable...
Every day i live like a zombie... Every day i have forgotten to bring smile to work... Every day my mind is thinking of her 24hours a day, 86400 sec per day... Got nothing to say... Just wanna know why she did that to me........ Sooner or later i will be mad..........

Alphabet Bear...

The second Bear given to her...